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My mother is that kind of person I absolutly don't wanna be like. she is dependent from her husband, not in her economical situation, but in her way of life... I think she cant make any personal desicion on her own.
well, I really dont want to be like she is, but thinkig about it I more and more came to the conclusion my parents raised me just exactly the way they live, that means they were not able to make me an independent and self-confident thinkin' human beeing. Especialy my father. I can't exactly explain, but i'm sure he tries to keep me in dependance of him by doing difficult things like all the insurance stuff or solutions for computertrouble and other tings and not explaining to me how to do it by my self. And whenever I show some kind of independance, my mother cries I'd destroy all the family's integrity (?? sorry, since I'm out of school I did'nt practice my english skills very much...;-). Well I discovered that I sometimes behaved just like my Mother does... showing that I really have zero self confidance, and the others noticed that. So they behave like my father does to my mother...
Well, now I trie to learn everything you need in your all-days-life just because I dont wanna depend on my future partner like my mother depends on my father...
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